05/08/09 444am

My dream last night has me bothered. In the dream it has my mother and I living in this house. Where we are at it is very humid and in the dream its raining.

Well throughout the dream we are getting a long fine; no fighting or arguing, etc. However half way through the dream she is standing next to me and has a blank look on her face. It starts to make me nervous and I ask her "Mom, are you okay?" she then looks at me, here eyes go a little black - almost hollow looking, and she just goes off. She starts yelling and belittles me. I mean at every turn she is just spewing all this negativity at me. Soo much pain does it cause.

So here is what I am thinking. They are getting to move and where ever they are going I shouldn't follow. Because it'll just be the same as it ever was. Something will set her off and then its all down hill. On the flip side this could also be an issue that I deal with when it comes to her. Her random up and down "I love you, I hate you" mood swings. *sigh* What am I going to do about this moving thing?? I know I just be concerned and I shouldn't be worried. I should just sit back, focus on my intent to move, and it will happen. Okay.. breathe J, just breathe.