8/8/09

I am ending my very recent relationship. I feel that it isn't right. To be honest I don't feel that a relationship is right, for me, anymore.

When I say anymore I get this feeling of dread, that I am really only lying to myself, but I can't help it.

I almost feel like my heart is beyond repair at this point. That some how I have become so detached emotionally, that I don't even know what love feels like when it is in front of me.

8/6/09

I don't feel that I've made a mistake with accepting the invitation to be boyfriends with Him. But I do wonder, if it's what I want anymore.

I feel that without realizing it, I became comfortable with being single. I had gotten comfortable not having someone in my life to share life with and I was good with that.

So now I am in a relationship where I find myself falling in love - but at the same time wondering if this is what I want anymore. Have I really grown out of wanting a relationship?

8/3/09

So...its official. I'm falling for Him....I haven't done this.. or felt like this.. since I can't even remember.

Shit...

oh.. ps... I'm officially an Uncle :)