051709

My weekend has been interesting. Quite emotional and slightly unnerving. But I managed.

I did dream last night - but I should have written it down right when I woke up (after I had it) because now its fuzzy. But I do believe it pertained to me meeting people and helping people after I move. Basically it was an affirmation type of dream that I'll be in D.C. soon. That everything will work out, etc.

I feel really good this morning. Calm and at ease.

As for my weekend, I went to the recruiting station for the Navy, but they were closed. So I took that as a sign to NOT do it. LOL. Then proceeded to the Airforce base with my father to pick up some items from the Commissary and the BX.

Going to the BX really took me back to being younger and in Japan. It made my head spin, I started to have a panic/anxiety attack. I wanted to dash out the door and just run; hoping the memories of my childhood woldn't be able to catch me.

Japan was a wonderful experience, but I don't know if I'd ever go back because of a lot of pain associated with it. However, one day I may need to go back, to release that pain.

I saw Stitch last night and we hung out. We both talked and learned more about one another. We expressed our feelings about my moving situation. He is a wonderful guy, but he understands tha I can't open up fully to him because I am moving. I don't want to get attached because it wouldn't be fair to him or me.

So we are still going to hang out and get to know each other. Anyway, about to start work in 45 mins. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that its a slow day :-D (hey, we all have dreams, haha).